HI! I know it has been such a dreadful long time, but there are a few reasons I must admit to that have been the cause for my absence.

1. Lack of Inspiration- Senior years of highschool sucks no matter what anybody says. Always busy, always running around worried about what to get done, how much time theres left to have fun etc.

2. Depression- I must admit that I have been in some sort of a depression this year. I'm not sure what that's all about, but I suppose that it's mainly stress. Also questions like, "Am I doing the right thing?" "Am I on the right track?""Is this REALLY what I want to do?""Why does my sister have to be so far away?""What's going to happen to me and the boyfriend that I love very much at the end of the year?"

3. Which leads to problems with said boyfriend- His stupid friend is always getting on my nerves and saying that he doesn't like me and that he's cheating on me....I know that I shouldn't let that get to me, but it really does, and lately, all I can do is think about him. We're on Spring Break, and I've spent the majority daydreaming about him.

4. Family issues- Earlier this year my uncle died, and my family is kind of rocked by this. But ever since my best friend and cousin Tawatha died, I haven't been able to cry when people die. It was very hard to watch all of the family around me cry and sob, yet I wasn't able to, even if I wanted.

5. SCHOOL- I got accepted into ALL 4 schools that I applied to, but I've decided to go to ODU. As sucky as this year has been, I'm really excited to get out there on my own, and start a new life. Of course I will miss all of my friends and family, but it's finally time for me to take over, and I hope I do a dern well job of it.


There are probably many other reasons, but those are the main ones! Some things that have been helping me a lot this year has been the movie RENT, my friend Derek, and my dad. It's hard to say that I have been awfully lonely this year, as all of my friends are sort of drifting off and finding their own things. It's cool, I'm glad they can all do that, but I'm not really like that. The circle of friends I started with is still the circle of friend I stay associated with today. There aren't that many new friends, and I suppose that is my own fault as I am bad at clinging on to people XD.

But all of this will change when I get to college! It will be a new, outgoing me!

OH and I have to lose like 30 pounds. Good luck with that haha.

I hope this year turns out a lot better than I think it is. I just have to be positive. That's all.



P.S HOLY HELL I FINALLY BEAT KINGDOM HEARTS 1! ISN'T THAT RATHER PATHETIC FOR IT TO TAKE ME 3 YEARS TO FINISH IT? I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I WANNA EVEN LOOK AT THE SECOND ONE BECAUSE I KNOW ALL MY FRIENDS ARE GONNA LAUGH AT ME AND BE LIKE, WOW WHAT TOOK SO LONG? BUT HEY, I FIRST GOT THAT GAME WHEN THEY WERE ALREADY BEATING THE SECOND ONE -_-. I'M JUST A BUSY PERSON OKAY? I DON'T HAVE TIME TO SPEND 72 HOURS AT A TIME, BEATING A GAME WITHOUT FOOD OR SLEEP....