Yay, I haven't been on much lately seeing as how I've been up to my forehead with things and stuff.

Sorry to everyone who's been waiting for me and stuff, I've just been really having a hard time here, hence why my family and I thought it would be best for me to return to my hometown next semester and finish my degree there. I'm not going to lie; it was really fun here at first and I enjoyed myself, but now I'm in a depression and I can't be happy here. I must return home. It's okay though because I'll get to see my old friends again and it will take a lot of financial pressure off of my parents. I look forward to getting well again.

Just so you know, I'm considering putting up some of my writings here because I don't have anywhere else to write anymore. I don't post fanfiction anymore because I am displeased with fanfiction.net. I write a lot of original fiction now, and I have one story that I am absolutely in love with now, I apologize though, because I won't post that one since I want to publish it later on. That doesn't mean that my other stories are any less appealing though.

It's kind of sad how I'd lost my identity in a relationship that didn't lead me anywhere. I've come to realize that my writing was one of the many things that suffered from it and I am sorry it had to. I have been writing a lot more and plan to continue to do so. Never give up something you love for someone you think you might love. That's all I can say. I feel ashamed to have let such a thing happen to me. But you know what? It's all good though, my writing now recognizes heartbreak, something I've never felt before, and that my friends, is a good thing. Experience makes for wonderful writing!

So...yeah.....hi.

HI! I know it has been such a dreadful long time, but there are a few reasons I must admit to that have been the cause for my absence.

1. Lack of Inspiration- Senior years of highschool sucks no matter what anybody says. Always busy, always running around worried about what to get done, how much time theres left to have fun etc.

2. Depression- I must admit that I have been in some sort of a depression this year. I'm not sure what that's all about, but I suppose that it's mainly stress. Also questions like, "Am I doing the right thing?" "Am I on the right track?""Is this REALLY what I want to do?""Why does my sister have to be so far away?""What's going to happen to me and the boyfriend that I love very much at the end of the year?"

3. Which leads to problems with said boyfriend- His stupid friend is always getting on my nerves and saying that he doesn't like me and that he's cheating on me....I know that I shouldn't let that get to me, but it really does, and lately, all I can do is think about him. We're on Spring Break, and I've spent the majority daydreaming about him.

4. Family issues- Earlier this year my uncle died, and my family is kind of rocked by this. But ever since my best friend and cousin Tawatha died, I haven't been able to cry when people die. It was very hard to watch all of the family around me cry and sob, yet I wasn't able to, even if I wanted.

5. SCHOOL- I got accepted into ALL 4 schools that I applied to, but I've decided to go to ODU. As sucky as this year has been, I'm really excited to get out there on my own, and start a new life. Of course I will miss all of my friends and family, but it's finally time for me to take over, and I hope I do a dern well job of it.


There are probably many other reasons, but those are the main ones! Some things that have been helping me a lot this year has been the movie RENT, my friend Derek, and my dad. It's hard to say that I have been awfully lonely this year, as all of my friends are sort of drifting off and finding their own things. It's cool, I'm glad they can all do that, but I'm not really like that. The circle of friends I started with is still the circle of friend I stay associated with today. There aren't that many new friends, and I suppose that is my own fault as I am bad at clinging on to people XD.

But all of this will change when I get to college! It will be a new, outgoing me!

OH and I have to lose like 30 pounds. Good luck with that haha.

I hope this year turns out a lot better than I think it is. I just have to be positive. That's all.



P.S HOLY HELL I FINALLY BEAT KINGDOM HEARTS 1! ISN'T THAT RATHER PATHETIC FOR IT TO TAKE ME 3 YEARS TO FINISH IT? I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I WANNA EVEN LOOK AT THE SECOND ONE BECAUSE I KNOW ALL MY FRIENDS ARE GONNA LAUGH AT ME AND BE LIKE, WOW WHAT TOOK SO LONG? BUT HEY, I FIRST GOT THAT GAME WHEN THEY WERE ALREADY BEATING THE SECOND ONE -_-. I'M JUST A BUSY PERSON OKAY? I DON'T HAVE TIME TO SPEND 72 HOURS AT A TIME, BEATING A GAME WITHOUT FOOD OR SLEEP....

So things are finally starting to slow up a bit, so I have time to breathe. THANK GOODNESS!! I still have a lot of work to do though. I'm happy with the time I have though. I gotta get crackin' on college stuff though. Don't wanna become left behind ! AHH!

ALSO Anime USA is in 24 days!!! I am SOOOO Excited!!!! I hafta work on my cosplay costume tho. I have most of it done, just the tidbits to perfect and I'll be done. If the stoopid fur rug would stop shedding all over everything, that'd be nice :$ AND MY LOVERLY ONE IS COMING WITH US THIS YEAR I AM SO HAPPY cuz we get to spend our 2 year (I KNOW 2 YEARS AHH WOW) anniversary togethers!!! SO excited and happy *dances*

*** NEWS PURPLE PEOPLE! **** HOPE?

I managed to get ahold of Vol, and he has word that there are some people of the Green Race that are rebelling against them and causing ruckus and harm to those evil soul suckers! He says they are headed our way to help us out in the fight that is to come. Question is, can we trust them? Or should we keep them somewhere locked up where we can keep our eyes on them? As head princess I am at a crossroad I dunno what to do....

OK, so, I have not been on for a while, I apologize. Classes are overwhelming an I have straight A's to earn. I am currently trying to find time to do anything really, all of my fanfiction hasn't been updated since LAST school year and I know people over at that place are getting annoyed with me. I'll see what I can do. I'm just reallly under pressure right now but after the next two week things should slow down and mellow out.

As far as the purple people are going, Negotiations are still under way, military officers are STILL missing, and we are in the search for lost ancient texts and documents. So the history of our people will not be out for a while. SORRY. I'm hoping all of this will simmer down by Samhein. Anyways, any questions about that I will try to answer but like I said, our shtuph is gone.

Thanks to y'all who've been commenting me......It's cool.....need more friends here....hmmm.....